Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Yugatech & BlackBerry dare you to BE BOLD



The swaying of the hanging bridge was ever uncontrollable especially when children were running back and forth in it. Although, I have no fear of heights but I'm afraid of losing control and not being grounded. So when we came to Bohol and came upon to this hanging bridge, I felt my knees tremble and hands became sweaty. It’s not about the more or less 50 feet fall that would eventually break me into pieces that scared me, but the fact that I have to cross it back and forth with the wind swaying it, apart from the fearless children running around. But I didn't break down and instead took the challenge and silently dare myself to do it just to see how far I could go beyond my self made limitations. I had to hold the ropes tightly just so I can cross it and every step was a torture and a relief at the same time. At the end, I told my friends that I had no problem crossing it, but in reality, my nerves were all jelly inside. I pulled it off without them knowing it.
After that Bohol adventure, I decided a bold move of continuing law school and leaving the comforts of my home. It somewhat a trigger for me to be daring and fearless in facing my unknown and uncertain future, which I certainly don't have any control over.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Won a contest...

I just won a small writing contest where I submitted my story 'Killing is my profession'. I wasn't expecting to win because I just submitted it without even giving so much thoughts about the contest. But, I won and I'm sooo happy with it. :)
Batch 2010 (the sad endings)

I'm a graduating student
I fooled around with my boyfriend
Months later, I now carry a child

I'm a graduating student
I tried using drugs
Now, it turn to an addiction I can't let go

I'm a graduating student
My family can't support me anymore
That's why I started working

I'm a graduating student
I don't have any friends
This is why I shot myself

I'm a graduating student
I learned how to drink
Now, I'm an alcoholic

I'm a graduating student
I study a lot that I forgot to eat
That's why I'm sick

I'm a graduating student
I played online games everyday
This is why I spent all my time in the cafes

I'm a graduating student
I like smoking a lot
Now, I have a lung cancer

I'm a graduating student
My father taught me to gamble
This is why I steal just for it

I'm a graduating student
I never like studying
That's why I failed

I'm a graduating student
I did everything right
But I died in an accident

I'm a graduating student
I got into bad crowds
so I'm tangled in an illegal syndicate

I'm a graduating student
I was never confident with myself
Which is why I have the lowest job at work

Monday, May 31, 2010

Do you really know me?

Do you really know me?
I think you don't
Did you bother to get to know me?
I think you didn't
Even when I bare my soul in front of you
You only see the part of me which you wanted to see
You don't really care
You don't give a damn
After all, you already got that something that you want
So why should I bother?
Why should I think?
Its what should I have expected from a hypocrite.

 date finished: Jan. 17, 2010

Sunglasses


"Can I borrow this?" she asked though she already held it in her hands. I didn't mind it anyway since I wouldn't say no to her.

She sat beside me silently, while I was writing my notes. I didn't know why but I suddenly stop writing and just look at her. It was in that moment when a tear slid from her cheek. She wiped it away as quickly as it appeared not knowing that I noticed it.

I set aside my things and just sat beside her, pretending that I didn't see the tear. She slid down her head on my shoulder and settled in there for a while. In silence, I sat with her without a care on the world.

Our surrounding then was at peace yet my mind was in turmoil. I want to know yet I couldn't ask. I have questions but I know she won't answer. I want her to share her pain however between the two of us, things are not as easy as they are. So in silence, I cry with her. In silence, I feel her pain. And in silence, I will be here for her.

Darkness had claimed the sky and my shoulder started to feel numb. Thinking that she had fallen asleep, I let her stayed that way even though it hurts. Yet, at that moment, she suddenly sat upright and faced me.

She was smiling at me. Her smile that can ease my pain whenever I see it, is directed to me. Then I wondered what she'll do next.

She took away my sunglasses glasses, rubbed her eyes as if she just woke up and said, "thank you", then handing me the glasses.

"For my shoulder?" I asked with mischief.

"No, for your sunglasses," she answered with mirth written on her face.

My smile got wider. I know what she really mean. Knowing her, I know that's the best answer I can get from her. But I'm thankful still for at least she noticed and all is not in vain. Someday, she won't need the glasses anymore. Someday...

 date finished: April 8, 2010

Beauty and Insecurity

An alluring beauty stood by the window. With all the people in the party, she stood there alone. They gathered to her when she came earlier but sooner or later one by one they left her side.

Her hair glistened as the light hits it which made her more of a temptress. She looked at them with a slight disinterest while people could not keep their eyes from her. Why wouldn't they when her beauty radiates from the crowd; no one is comparable to her - no one stood a chance.

But unknown to every one, the beautiful seductress is an insecure one. She knew that every little thing she does is being watch by every single one of them.  That in every mistake she commits, it is magnified ten times or more by every one who wants to pull her down. She lives not a life but of fear. She fears that the image she built for herself would crumble with just a small mistake she might commit and she feared that people won't look at her the same way again. These are the reasons why she chose to be alone. She is afraid to trust people because they might become the reason of her fall.

date finished: April 5, 2010

I'm Not In Love

I'm not in love
Yet I write poems of love
Keep singing love songs
And has a smile on my face

I'm not in love
But I see the colors of the world
I appreciates its beauty
And I hear their songs playing

I'm not in love
That's why people keep on asking
How I maintain such bubbly spirit
If I'm not really in love as I claim to be

I'm not in love
Because I've already loved
And heartaches I've already suffered
Which I'm not ready to begin again

I'm not in love
For the last time this I tell
Its only that I feel so love
Which is why I feel like this

I'm not in love
Coz I'm in love with the world
With the people around me
And with the things bestowed upon me

For love is found not just on a special someone
It can be seen through the eyes of your friends
From the unwavering support of your Family
And from the blessings of the Divine. ^^

date finished: March 31, 2010